im smiling im smiling :D

MET THESE TWO KUKU NUTHEADS RECENTLY :D

i've got brown iris :D
YAAAAAYYYYS~!!
for nothing XD
lol. sorry random =x

ok. let me spit everything out XD
70% of it =x
the rest, fr me to know, fr you to find out XD
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

YA ALLAH.
Thanks so much :D
A few weeks ago i was suffering from:
swollen fingers and they cant be bent; what more of gripping things?
wrists that cant be twisted
arms that cant be lifted
knees that cant be bent
ankles that cant be twisted
swollen toes and inner side of the feet, ankle areas
legs that cant be lifted
upper backaches; at the lung areas
neck that cant be rotated and is as stiff as a chimney
shoulders that feels more like a stone

i couldnt walk up the stairs.
i couldnt walk down the stairs OMG IT WAS HELL.
i couldnt really walk properly. it was just pain with every step.
i couldnt stand so long. but trains in the morning are packed and there was no choice.
i couldnt sit down for too long either. cos it'll take me 5mins to stand up =x
i couldnt breathe properly; i was breathing in short gasps.
i couldnt grip anything, and my handwriting was idiotic and illegible.
i couldnt press the "on-off" switch -_-"
i couldnt even take off my tshirt la!!!!!! IDIOT. i went to sch in my pjs =x
i spent at least 1hr in the toilet. dreadful.
i had to wake up 3hrs earlier and start to massage my legs and hands to get them going.
i had phobia of sleeping cos everytime a new day emerges, my condition all starts back to square one.
i couldn't sleep well cos i couldnt breathe properly and as a result, i always wake up almost every hour.
i would cry in the toilet -_-" depression. lol
i thought of amputation but couldnt find the chopper. HAHAHAHA
i was afraid of burping, laughing, hiccuping cos everytime i did, there'll be a sharp pain at my lungs area at the upper bck =x
the strain around my neck and shoulder area would sometimes trigger migraine =x
and there are others la. HAHAHA. too many to say. lol

I asked for either my arms or my legs to get healed but you heled both :D
well, even if it's just temporary, it's still "healed" :)
cos i feel no more pain. the medication made me feel numb and light all over. lol
VERY light til i feel like flying.
HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.
the medication makes me feel high for a short period of time and after that, i'd feel worn out and tired.
And then the drowsy effect takes over and i'll start swaying.
WEEEEEEEEE~~~~
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

the breathing's still the same though. haha.
and sometimes my wrist do hurt once in a while x)
oh. im now 39kg -_-"
i lost abt 3kg! OMG.
WTH! NOW I'VE GOTTA PUT ON 6KG SO I CAN DONATE BLOOD =x

yesterday's stats was...
err i dono XD
ok and not ok..? =x
aiya so-so la. yaya payaya la.
haha
cos i only managed to study abt 3hrs fr it.
and after i'd taken my medication, i'd frgotten all that i've studied =x
oh wells =x

i jz wana pull through to the exams haha.
dunwana miss any of them.
hopefully i can :D

alhamdulilah, ya Allah :)
berikanlah aku ketabahan dan kekuatan agar aku berani mengalami semua cabaran ini.
i also thank my dad and my family for i no longer have to suffer all these alone like i did for the past 3 weeks.
and i apologise to all those whom i've burdened so much.
im really sorry.
i thank you all for taking care of me :)